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Ok. Hello 2018. Glad you're here.
I always feel like there's something special about starting a new year. Clean slate, as they always say and I couldn't agree more. People always talk about thing they wanna do to start their new year; resolution, goals, etc. Making THE big changes. Me? I just like to start small. Not always a big on big things, you know? They bores me. I like small things that makes the difference. Example no. 1 - waking up early in the morning. Sounds about the simplest thing to do. No biggie. Anyone can do it, even a ten year old. But, it's 'biggie' thing for me. One of many things I struggle with, and I'm sure - a lot others do too. So, that's what I like to change this year. It might be hard, given a day or two. But, if I keep on doing it - hey, it could be a new habit. A forced one of course, but it's still count. They say old habits dies hard, but I digress. Set an achievable goal and plenty of time; I'm sure it can be fixed. That's why I like to start now.
Two days ago I woke up with a new high spirit inside of me. A lot of things had happened last year, some of it was good, many were bad - I just wish a part of it could disappeared and be gone forever. But, hey - that's me being a child. Truth is, those bad memories are still gonna hunt me and my subconsciousness everyday. Instead of running, it's probably better for me to face it and then deal with it in my own way. Anyway, I figure 2018 might be the year to keep my bad thoughts in control and resolution could be one of the way to do it. Control... Even the very word terrifies me, but I'm ready. My mind, body and soul are ready to get beaten. I'm ready to face my own Demon this year; whichever form or shape they may take. I don't mind if I get bleed, as long as I know that I had tried my very best.
Ever since I started vlogging in my daily life, I barely thinks about writing in this blog anymore. And to think... this used to be my number one choice when it comes to 'soul-baring'. Anyway, I think as the time and technologies change - so did I. I found it's much easier to contemplate my day through vlogging, than using words or pictures. Call it being narcissistic or what, but I love recording my daily life, edit and later watch it. Things can still be pretty interesting even when you're jobless, you know? Sure, I don't have the money, but that doesn't mean I can't have good time. Speaking of which, also a good thing... Time is on my side. I can basically do whatever I want with it. I don't think a lot of people could make the same claim.
Anyhow, 2018 is gonna be a special year for me. Not because I had decide to take another course at university or go to another country. But, because I had decide to pay more attention to my health. You know, I did my two-year worth medical check-up last year and had a little bit of scare. The doctor told me that if I'm not careful enough - I could potentially get a gallstone. Well, that runs in a family, I guess (on my maternal side). 'Potentially' doesn't exactly sound harmless, but at twenty-five; I realize that this is no time to be lenient about my health. So, no more fried food, meat, or anything that's high in cholesterol for me (no matter how delicious they are). I already cut down the sugar intake on my drinks about a week ago and sure, it sucks, but in a long-time period - this is gonna be a good thing. I hope too.
I guess that's pretty much what I had to say, when it comes to my 2018 resolution. Nothing too big, too show-off, or too un-achievable. Small changes that leads to a big one in the future. It's too early to tell, but for now - this is becoming of me. I hope it could be a great success.
Anyway, thank you for reading this entry. Hope you have a good start in 2018 and have a nice day.