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Friday, July 20, 2018

Kisah Kenapa Aku Turun Berat Badan 68kg

Semenjak meningkat usia ni aku semakin banyak membaca topik-topik yang berkaitan cara permakanan yang betul. Dulu masa growing up, sumpah aku telan je semua tak kira tempat dan masa, tapi nearly end of 2013; I have a changed of heart. Nak tau pesal? Pasal mulut orang. Haha. Sejujurnya aku cakap, aku tak heran sangat mulut orang ni sangat, but on this one particular event - memang aku sentap habis. 

Long story short; time tu aku intern, umur baru 21 tahun; adalah sorang makcik yang kerja situ tegur aku (pasal badan aku). Mula-mula bunyi macam nak tanya-tanya gitu-gitu je, so aku pun leklek je jawab. Then, dia start lak tanya soklan peribadi. Study mana, duk mana, and bla bla.. Walaupun aku tak suka jawab soalan camni, aku layankan ajelah. Almost at the end, dia pun tanya lah aku dah boyfriend ke tidak. Malas nak bebel lebih, aku jawablah; TAK (mungkin buat selama-lamanya). I tot that would be the end of it. Sekali mulut cibai dia cakap pasal 'berat' badan kau kot takde orang nak. Pergh, aku meletops. Kuang hajau ko mak cik. Aku kenal kau tak sampai dua tiga bulan, boleh lak mulut kau cakap cenggitu, ya? Serius, aku panas. I was liek, mak cik kau dah kenapa sibuk hal peribadi aku? Aku tak heran hal kau pun. Tolong skit, ek? Aku cakap ni semua, tapi dalam hati jelah. 

So, selepas encounter dengan mak cik itu - I cried. Gila kau orang kutuk kau gemuk kau tak nangis? Back then aku baru umur 21 tahun and that's the first time aku dengar orang luar kutuk aku GEMUK, depan muka aku. Now that I think of it, dia taklah guna ayat tu pon per say; still implementation dia (awak GEMUK lah). Anyway, selepas tu aku tekad. Nak turun berat badan 5-10 kg. Aku start google healthy food option, what food to avoid, dan mula masak sendiri. Korang leh refer post lama aku ni for more details.  

As of now, dah hampir 4 tahun berat aku no longer melebihi 65kg. Makin turun lagi adalah semenjak aku mengamalkan intermittent fasting (14-18 hours per day). Kadang-kadang bila tengok gambar atau cermin - macam tak caya lak aku dah sekurus ni. Sometimes, aku terpikir gak - kan bagus kalau aku kurus sejak dulu lagi, mesti gambar semua 'hot' aje. But, then teringat pulak bertapa narrow mindednya aku ketika itu berserta metobolisme badan yang tahap longkang; nevermind. Now I say; better late then never.

Honestly, when I think of the root for all these weight lost - I have mak cik 'bermulut cibai' to thank for. Kalau tidak disebabkan dia, confirm sampai sekarang la badan aku masih gemuk lagi. So, thank you, mak cik cibai. This post is dedicated for you. Beliau telah membuka mata aku yang selama ini tertutup rapat dengan tegurannya itu. Yes, memang aku nangis sedih sebab kena kutuk, but then bila aku kurus - aku nangis kegembiraan pulak wakaka. Walaupun tegurannya itu sedikit pedas mengecam, aku akui yang hati aku tergerak untuk go through my own weight lost journey. So, again thank you.


Goal aku this year adalah untuk reach 52kg (5 kg sahaja for this year). The method I used is definitely intermittent fasting, exercising, healthy/ raw food and drinking a lot of water  Memang macam tak banyak beza sangat for now, but in a long term period - results from achievable goals ini akan last longer daripada rata-rata diet program yang lain. Aku pasti sebab aku dah pernah buat dulu and it works. Now, I had finally able to stabilize it, I'm ready for the final ride. 47 kg, here I come!!


Yours truly,
Mimi Said



Monday, July 16, 2018

Cameron Highlands: Finding Hydrangea & Strawberries

Cameron Highlands adalah sebuah tempat percutian yang banyak meninggalkan kenangan manis untuk aku. Kali pertama aku kesini adalah sekitar May 2007. Tahun tu aku ambil peperiksaan PMR (now known as PT3). Time kelas tambahan lagi melambak. Pedulik pe aku pergi gak. Siap missed kelas extra lagi. Huhu, cuak gak time tu kalau aku tak score straight A's ke apa sebab terlepas kelas. Thank God berjalan pun dapat, straight A's pun aku sebat. Bagus kan? Ya, memang kena bagus kalau tak, gerenti dah kena sebijik dengan bapak aku. lolz

So, the other day aku tengok balik gambar-gambar lama time vacation aku tu. Serius, kelakar kot... Dengan chubbynya aku berserta fashion sensenya yang ntah apa-apa. Terus terang aku cakap, aku tak suka nak look back benda yang aku dah buat or achieve, but untuk trip ni - aku kentalkan jugak. And guess what? Aku tak regret pun tengok gambar-gambar tu semua. Why? Ya, walaupun aku chubby dan takde fashion sense - I remember being happy because I was having a good time with my family.

Anyway, getting back to the point of today's post, aku nak update yang aku ke Cameron Highland buat kali ke-duanya a few days ago. Yes, I know Malaysia je (kot), ko takyah update pun takpe (lainla kalau gi oversea) but what do I care? Bagi aku, asalkan aku puas hati dengan trip tu dan rasa macam ada something worth sharing - aku akan post di sini. Dah memang itu function blog ni pun. Personally, travel oversea bunyi memang best, tapi domestic lebih hassle free. Also, kalau travel oversea kena fikir budget (different currency rate and all). Leceh. Travel kat negara sendiri - boleh spend dengan lavish sikit. Lush life katanya...

R&R Dengkil: Sempat order ice cream dekat Baskin Robins sebab ada promo sempena demam bola.
This ice cream is on of my favorites - Royale Chocolate Mousse 
Bila aku compare antara trip aku ni dengan 2007, aku dapati banyak kelainannya. Antaranya, location guide. Kalau dulu nak pergi melawat Strawberry Farm ke atau kebun bunga mesti kena tanya orang atau sibuk cari tourist guide bagai. Sekarang, dengan adanya teknologi seperti smartphone, internet & aplikasi (waze); tidak perlu lagi. Taip je one word, berpuluh suggestion yang akan muncul. Dari rating dua sampailah the most popular tourist attraction. Dari yang di tengah-tengah bandar hinggalah ke rural area. Dari free hinggalah berbayar. Aku ni dah tentu-tentulah nak yang free admission je pasal I like to win. :")

Yes, muka happy pasal dapat tidur hotel yang memang mantap.
Kalau ada sesiapa yang nak spend weekend di Cameron Highland,
aku cadangkan tinggal di Avillion Cameron Highland.
Memang cecah beratus semalam tapi hotel ni baru, modern dan
sangat family-friendly. Service pun tip-top je.
Satifiaction level = 100%
So, trip ni aku pergi 3 days 2 night with my family members. First day mainly hanya lepak di bilik hotel dan selfies jer. Banyak gak selfies dan video yang aku ambil. Yes, video. For those who don't know, aku dah lama quit FB dan Insta sebab aku lagi prefer vlogging. Masuk tahun ni dah nak dua tahun dah aku daily vlog dan total video yang aku produce dah nak cecah ratusan. Quality pun makin lama makin best. Di sebabkan I like vlogging so much, aku tak miss langsung social media aku. Haha, that's a lie. Gambar-gambar di Insta baru pun sudah mencecah ratusan tapi masa buat dulu aku terus set mode private sebab nak jaga privacy dan lifestyle aku. Mohon jangan cari atau request pulak.

Time aku ke Cameron dulu aku budak lagi. Mana tau apa benda semua... Sekarang ni leklek je aku navigate jalan di yang berliku-liku tu pakai apps. Bukan susah pun. Signal 4G kau lagi-lagi bila dah sampai kat Tanah Rata. Itenerary aku ke Cameron adalah untuk a.) Beli Strawberry and straight makan kat situ b.) Singgah ke Cameron Valley Tea House untuk menikmati secawan tea panas serta enjoying view ladang teh dan c.) Cari bunga baru untuk garden dekat rumah aku. Achievable goals, kan? Which is why, semua yang aku plan runs smoothly...

Aku ingat nak kena travel Europe atau Jepun je untuk jumpa spesis bunga ni... Rupa-rupanya dekat Cameron
 ni pun ada. For those yang tak tahu, bunga ni namanya Hydrangea atau Bunga Tiga Bulan. Cantik kan?
Bunga ni merupakan bunga favorite aku.
Antara benda menarik (bagi aku) yang terjadi masa trip aku ke Cameron adalah bila aku terjumpa dengan bunga di atas ni. Pergh, excited gila aku jumpa Hydrangea secara live. Dah la live, besar lak tu... Yes, when it comes to flowers - the bigger the better... Sebagai self-proclaim green thumbs, aku sangat menghargai tumbuh-tumbuhan ni. Sebab tu lah every year on my birthday - akan ada satu ritual di mana aku bawa new plant into my home. For the entire year aku akan jaga plant tu elok-elok. Then, after a year is over and after aku rasa pokok tu boleh hidup sendiri, aku akan bring another plant dan jaga plant tu pulak and the circle continues. So far dah ada 6 plants under my care and semuanya masih healthy and alive. I love bringing a new life into my world.

Memang cantik gila. Aku sebenarnya nak bunga ni warna biru
tapi dah takde tu - color pink ni pun jadilah.
So, kenapa aku suka sangat bunga hydrangea ni? No particular reason. Cuma rasa affinity yang tak terunggap around bunga ni. Anime yang aku tengok tu pun selalu buat reference pasal hydrangea je so mungkin subconsciously telah di brainwashed untuk menyukai bunga ini tanpa sengaja. Huhu. One of the best thing pasal hydrangea ni adalah once ia berbunga, ia akan terus mekar sehingga tiga bulan! Lama tu so memang untung kalau tanam. Also, bunga ni pun special juga pasal boleh bertukar-tukar warna mengikut keasidan/ kealkalian tanah tanaman dia. Ha, tu yang best tu.

Ok. Dah jumpa Hydrangea & Strawberry.
This post is now complete.  
Like I said, itinerary pertama adalah untuk menikmati buah Strawberry yang manis lagi lazat. Selalu beli kat supermarket aku for sure akan dissapointed pasal buah rasa masam dan mahal gila (RM7+). Beli dekat sini baru RM5. However, aku perasan yang buah Strawberry besar sebenarnya lagi manis daripada yang kecil (around RM10) so aku recommendkan beli yang tu je. Memang mahal sikit tapi kepuasan hati tu terjamin.  

Ah, these Hydrangea beds feels GOOD~
Kalau nak ikutkan, nak je aku tidur sini sampai malam.
 Adakah ini yang dinamakan obsesi?

More picture aku dengan bunga ni. Lol.
Serius sama besar dengan muka aku.
I'm so jelly... jelly...~
Antara roses breed yang ada di sini.
Actually dekat Cameron ni ada banyak lagi pokok bunga yang lain seperti Roses, Orchid, Cactus dan sebagainya. Nak beli bunga bawak balik rumah pun takde hal. Cuma jangan petik bunga sudahlah pasal awal-awal lagi dia dah bagi sign dilarang memetik bunga kat situ which is obvious through this picture below.

No plucking, alright?
Selain daripada pokok hydrangea, aku enjoy pine trees jugak.
Setelah melawat ladang Strawberi, my family and I decide nak go for lunch and jalan-jalan pulak dekat sekitar town centre dia. Niat nak beli souvenir memang takde tapi found this cute Strawberry headpiece pulak so I decided to put it on. Boleh tahan cute. Oklah nak buat modal bergambar sebab nak beli rasa macam takde function pun.

Here's the Strawberry Headpiece
Like I said, aku suka bawa balik new plant into my home and life. Before leaving the place, sempat je aku beli sepasu Hydrangea dan 6 mini succulents. Tujuannya bila hydrangea tu dah berkembang biak, aku akan expand kat tempat lain. Mini succulents pulak for indoor decor because aku ada plan untuk built my own terrarium.

Ni lah dia succulentsnya. From left top - n/a, Mammillaria (Pincushion Cactus) & n/a
Left bottom: n/a, Sedum morganianum (Donkey Tail) & Cactus.
Sorry aku tak tahu name everyone yet.
Night time di sini memang best. Sejuk and redup je. Biasa kalau lepak kat kedai makan lama-lama boleh berpeluh la tapi sini rasa cam nak tidur pulak. Dinner kat Old Town sambil menikmati angin malam memang mengasyikkan. Cuma yang tak bestnya makanan mudah sangat sejuk disebabkan cuaca sekeliling yang hampir mencecah 18 darjah Celcius.

Dry Mee Curry from Oldtown Cafe.
Again, my favorite to-go menu kalau makan kat sini.
Air Sky juice je sebab dah banyak sangat minum minuman yang manis-manis sedari pagi.
Aku tak bolehlah nak minum air manis banyak sangat dalam satu hari.
Nanti aku jadi anxious.
Try golf cap my dad sebab rasa cam comel.


So, moving on to the next day, second itinerary adalah untuk singgah ke Cameron Valley Tea House untuk menikmati secawan tea panas serta enjoying view ladang teh. Yang ni aku save last day sebab senang on the way balik. Trip 2007 aku pergi jugak Tea House ni tapi time tu macam takde apa sangat. Menu kurang, service pun macam nak tak nak je. Mujurlah this time diorang dah tambah menu dan  dah ada varities of drinks to choose from. Customer pun ramai je. Viewnya masih sama macam yang aku ingat cuma aku tak singgah melawat ladang teh.
Teh dekat sini ada macam-macam jenis. Yang aku pilih ni regular dan harganya RM15.00
for one mini pot & 4 cups. Aku also add on Matcha Cake & Strawberry Cheesecake. 
Here comes the cake! Rasa takyah explain mana satu
 Matcha, mana satu Strawberry Cheesecake kot...
On the way balik, sempat je aku singgah dekat farmers market. Aku pernah nampak dalam blog yang ada orang beli bunga from Cameron untuk decor dekat rumah. Even though I know the flowers will confirm going to wilt in 2-3 days, aku beli juga. Tak mahal pun bunga warna-warni ni, cuma RM5.00 je. Bunga ros dia mahal sikit (RM10 for 8 stalk). Tak apalah, dah layu nanti boleh buat potpuri untuk letak kat tandas. 
Balik rumah je terus masuk dalam pasu kaca.
Tu pun dah boleh nampak dah bunga rose tu dah start layu.
Jadi potpuri la kau lepas ni....
Harga asal RM6.00 tapi dia kasi discount sehengget.
Maybe because I comel kot? teehee.
Antara teh yang telah dibeli. Aku tak berapa suka sangat souvenir.
But I love tea so aku tak rasa membazir bila beli ni.
Aku pilih mixed flavour because nak rasa semua tea under Cameron Valley flag. 
Oklah, sampai sini jelah dulu update family vacation aku kali ni. Insyaallah ada rezeki ke tempat lain pulak lah kita. Destinasi dah lockdown, tinggal implementationnye je yang kena diusahakan. Anyways, thanks for reading this entry. See you soon on my next post. Bye bye.

Yours Truly,
Mimi Said

Saturday, June 23, 2018

JUNE.

Eight months after MA.
Six months after starting my minimalism journey.
Five months after involved in intermittent fasting.
Four months after starting my home-improvement project.
Two months after my 26th birthday.
A month after fasting month 2018.

Now JUNE is here.

My current feelings? I honestly don't know.
But I know what makes me happy...
Debt free and liberty.
Damn people changing themselves too much.
I hope they know what they're doing, up to where their life is heading
I won't wish you the best, nor pretend like I care
I don't honey, and I won't.
My Life is unique, and so are YOURS
I forget an old friend, but it wasn't my choice
Still, a life is a life - and I tend to live it the best way I can
Just live yours, and forget about me

Even from start, I wasn't yours to keep
To steal or to borrow
To touch or to hurt
To love or to kill
I'm here for you to forget
Strong as an ox, hostile as a fox
You took four leaps, and I'll spread a thousand over
Sorry, babe - but our times is finished

I can't wish you for the best nor pretend like I care.
The girl you know, is the girl you need to forget
Why?
Because she doesn't exist at the first place.
June finally takes her over, and she's finally awake.
Goodbye friend.
Farewell, sweet Nightingale.

Your's truly
Mimi Said


Saturday, June 2, 2018

Things I Got Rid of on February 2018 (minimalism series)

Edited: This entry supposed to be posted on February but for somewhat reason - I had completely forgotten about it. A few months had passed since then and since I feel bad about deleting it, here's for your eyes to feast on. Enjoy reading!

I used to think that if you love something - then you gotta 'show' it. Writing comments, liking some random pictures, or whatever you do to make your intention well-known... Well, I don't really do that anymore. These days, I prefer to like/love something anonymously. In other words, I like to be inspired, but not really disclosing to anyone of what had actually inspired me... It seems like a cunning little thing to do, but I love it. Over the years I had grown to love my privacy and anonymity so much, it feels natural for me wanting to protect my sources.

But, not today. Today, I feel about talking about something that had inspired me.

It's had been more than 2 months since I began practicing minimalism. I never feel so much happier. My mind feel so at peace and there hasn't been a day where I feel of regret after getting rid of my stuff on January. I have a lot less stuff now, but that fact doesn't bother me that much. Each day feel fulfilled and simpler. I can walk into any store, look or try on any clothes - but come out without buying anything. That made me feel strong. Temptation is a worst enemy, but I make sure to stick to my budget and reminded myself - you don't need stuff and shit to feel happy. All you need is, YOU.

I used to buy a lot of things. From bracelet, to DVD's, to anime poster, hell - I even brought a air purifier because it looks like a novelty thing to have. It feel good to purchase them at first, but none of them leave a lasting impression. Some of those things I bought I haven't even touch in weeks or years (for that matter)... It feel like such a waste, but as soon as I start embracing minimalism - things finally makes sense. I feel so much in control now, instead of letting my desire and selfish reasons controls me. Come what may - advertisement on TV, Youtube videos, website, or even some shitty magazine - I couldn't be bothered.

Come to think of it, just about a week ago I deactivated my Facebook account because there's way too many people trying to sell stuff there. I found it too bothersome and honestly, too tempting... I figure that I don't need this bullsh*t, so I left. That's how serious I am about my minimalism journey. I get rid the temptation before it get to me.

On my first month of minimalism, I get rid about ten stuff on my list. Here, I had come back with another 10 more items for Feb 2018;

1.) Another 6 more books in donation pile. (Old romance novel)
2.) Old school bags ( there's about 4-5 of them. Also, in my donation pile.)
3.) A few more pieces of clothing (donation pile)
4.) Old condiments and expired spices 
5.) Old Tupperware and plastic storage (resell them at recycling centre)
6.) Old white paper (resell them at recycling centre)
7.) Old carpet
8.) Dead plant (and replant a new plant in its place)
9.) Boxes (minimize the boxes that I use to store my stuff; 5 into 1)
10.) Worn out undergarments

Honestly speaking, getting rid of stuff is one of the most liberating moments of my life. I used to be careful on my purchase and the thought of giving my private possession to someone else is unfathomable. Now, I couldn't even care less... As long as I know where my possession is going - then I'm fine about letting them go.

Yours Truly,
Mimi Said

Fragrance Scents That I Love

Aside from enjoying a sip from a hot tea, I also love applying a quick dash of perfume/fragrance on myself every now and then. Personally, I love scents that are fresh, light, fruity and slightly non-flowery. With my collections keeps growing in the passing years, I thought it only right to put them into a list and posted it in here. Anyway, with that being said - I hope you guys enjoy scrolling this post....

1.) Demeter: Sweet Baby (50ml & 15ml) by Demeter Fragrance Library

2017 Fragrance
Eau de Toilette
30 ml = RM 59.90 ; 15 ml - RM34.90
Demeter Frangrance Library was probably one of the first 'serious' perfume that I choose for myself. It has been around for more than 22 years (est. 1996), but I only seen its emergence in Malaysia on the late 2017. From the first moment I take a whiff of this thing - I know I'm in love. I got my first 15ml bottle from AEON Wellness and even though it was a little bit pricey - I still made my second purchase (30 ml) a few weeks afterwards. They had quite limit range sold in Malaysia (about 10-12 scents), despite having gigantic fragrance collection in oversea (they have about 300 scents in U.S). Among of my favorites are Sweet Baby, Daisy, Laundomat, Clean Soap, and Tears

2.) Peach Vineyard Body Mist by The Body Shop

2017 Fragrance
Body Mist
100 ml = RM59.00
The Second fragrance that I chosen in the year of 2017 was Vineyard Peach from The Body Shop. Since I already spent about RM500.00 from this store in the year of 2016-2017 alone, it probably weird not to include any fragrances into my purchase. I choose this scent because I enjoyed the fruity smell (along with raspberry and oranges). I brought this from the online store so I got to knock a couple of ringgits off from the discount they had offered. The scent is nice and very peachy. I enjoy applying it so much, especially after a long, hot shower at night.     

3.) W. Dressroom Dress & Living by W.Dressroom New York 

Fragrance 2018
Cologne
70 ml = RM25.90
W. Dressroom Dress & Living is a perfume that I brought in 2018. It's probably my favorite fragrances by far as not only it have fresh and floral scents, but it also have anti-bacterial purposes (2-in-1). It's also one of the fast-selling fragrance in South Korea and the price is pretty affordable with discounts. I brought my first three bottles from an online store called Shoppe.com. Since its a cologne, the scents are expected to last about 1-2 hours, but mine lasted for more than 12 hours after I sprayed it into my clothes. I think that's pretty cool. And also because I like it so much, I return to the store the following week to purchase another three bottles. This fragrance have about 10 different scents and among of my favorites are (45) Morning Rain, (97) April Cotton, (47) Fig Leaf, and (43) Always Happy and (02) Coconut. I will probably purchase more from this brand in the future.

4.) Summer Swing Cologne by Johnson's and Johnson's

2010-2017 Fragrance
Cologne
100 ml = RM6.90-7.90
Last but not least is this Summer Swing baby cologne from Johnson & Johnson's. A friend introduce it to me back in 2006, but it wasn't until 2010 that I decided to purchase it and turn it into my signature scent. I don't know if it's my old age or the fact that there's a lot of other fragrance out there - but I had grown tired with this scent. My last purchase was back in December 2016 but because of all these other perfumes and fragrances I had purchase in 2017 - I never look back.

So, these are some fragrance scents that I been loving lately. I think having your own signature scent / fragrance is very important as it would not only refreshing to wear, but makes your presence more memorable. Thank you for reading this entry. I'll be seeing you soon on my next post.


Yours Truly,
Mimi Said

Tuesday, April 10, 2018

Reason Why I Quit Social Media (FB in particular)

So, it's already 2018 and what do you know... Facebook founder, Mark Zuckerberg is under hot water for some serious allegation - data breach of its user. Apparently Zuckerberg policy allows him to sold off user information (est. 87 million people) to Trump. Geez, Zuckerberg... What a way to pave your own grave... Now, why wasn't I surprised about this? Oh wait - I know... Because a pretty similar incident had happened before. We all had been warned...

The year was 2013. Edward Snowden had copied and leaked some classified information from the National Security Agency (NSA) without authorization. When he fled with the information in his flash drive, nobody takes notice. It was initially a one-man operation, but thanks to help from selective journalist - the whole wide world now knows his story. U.S government hail him as a traitor to their country, but I think the man did it to warn his fellow countryman of what's been happening under their noses. He warned people about what is happening, yet nobody seems to take notice. People still using social media to rants, sharing stuff they life, etc... But, not me. 

I heard his voice and I'm a bit worried.

Because of Snowden action, I now know the danger of oversharing. He open my eyes on how dangerous it is to share your information (not only to people around you), but also on the internet. You know what they say, knowledge/information is power and don't Facebook know it. Which is why it hardly a surprise Facebook is in a deep sh*t right now.

Every year, I found the usage of Facebook in my daily life had become more pointless. I was never a big sharer IRL, but Facebook makes me want to share pictures, words, moods, quotes... whatever it is - on my page. I'm sure my reasoning to stick back then is the same like everyone else; posted my pic, got few likes, they makes me happy. Rinse and repeat. It didn't make me rich per say (as it did with Facebook ads revenue), but it's enough to make me stay at the time. And so, on and on it went - for 5-fucking-years! It wasn't until early Mac 2018 that I decided - enough is enough. It's time for me to delete my page forever. 

Did I missed it? Not even for a bit.

To tell you the truth, I always think how pointless all of these likes and comments I had received at this site. Not only did I think it was pointless, I also think it's boring. How many lives had been made miserable for the race of 'who got the most like' or 'who is the most popular?'. Anxiously sitting while waiting for some validation from strangers? Well, that doesn't sound like me. I don't care what people think. Their likes or comments means nothing so long as my mind is made up. I'm more of the 'be-whatever-u-want-to-be-and-fuck-all-the-rest' kind of girl.  So, what the hell am I doing here? Funny enough, I have no answer for that.

So, I started using Facebook less and less. Once in a blue moon (after 4-5 months had passed), I'll posted something (usually a picture with littlest caption as possible) before becaming dormant again. While most of people I know still getting sucked into Facebook, I wasn't. I'm not sure why, but I seemed to enjoy my own life more.

With the recent fall out in Facebook, I'll say I made a right call.

Funny to see people abandoning FB as soon as the data breach made into news. I'm sure Snowden, Mr. Robot, and many other outlets had warned them before about this. Would they listen? Nope. Everyone are either too addicted or too obsessed about themselves to care. So, what if Facebook mined your data a little... what you don't know wouldn't hurt you. Well now you know, don't you? Now you know that what you don't know, CAN and eventually WILL - kill you. I know it definitely had killed my trust on Facebook and probably more than a dozen social media out there. 

Lately, I been enjoying my life (social media free) more than ever. I wiped off my info and pictures on FB (while actively deleting all of my pictures from Instagram) and never looked back. Everyday feel so much tranquil now, no race to who look the dopiest, or endless wanderlust photo's. Braggers, needy and narcissist - all be DAMNED. There wasn't such bullshit in my life; not anymore. Nowadays, I feel more relaxed, more settled. This is my 'new' normal - and I like it!

Friday, February 16, 2018

Konmari Method & Goodbye,Things - The Nice Guide of Minimalism for Beginners

Today is 16 February 2018. And it has been more than a month since I decided that;

"Screw shopping. Screw stuff. Screw having so little money. I'm going full on minimalism starting 2018."

It was an idea that struck accord to me after reading so many articles detailing about the new 'minimalism' movement, how people having so little or next to nothing in their life. Living to the bare minimum puzzles me at first, though I didn't really chastises anyone who choose to do it. That's one thing I always try to remind myself - never judge people before getting to know them. So, I did a little more digging, watch more videos, read a couple more articles and books just to be sure that before making any comment - at least I am knowledgeable of the subject. As a result, I found out a couple of things. I realize that aside from having so little in their possession with theme color most constantly being white; most of minimalist also seems have one thing in common...

Most of them seems to be happier than they were before. 

I was skeptical at first. Yeah, you get rid of stuff and you're happy about it? Throwing, giving, reselling... a hundreds dollar of money spent, now all gone. Where's the logic in that? If it was me, I would be angry of the lack of profit return. But, that doesn't seems to be the case with these minimalist. For some reason, they're pretty content and more than willing to let go of their stuff even if it pays next to nothing. That part perplexes me somehow so I did a little experiment to test out if I can do the same thing and not feel mad nor cheated about it. So what did I do? I start off really small, of course.

I get rid all of my anime and movie posters. Yes, I did. 

Left pic: Before; Right pic: After
Look at my smug face. At the time, I had just finished decorating
my wall and was so proud about it. But, fast forward four months later...
So, I clean up my wall and left nothing there. Now, what? Any minute now - I was looking forward to start feeling happy and content. So, I look at my now almost barren wall, but yet - I felt nothing. Already I thought this is a failure... Perhaps minimalism wasn't for me, you know? I was ready to let it go but then decide to give it just a few more days. Which is exactly what I needed. 

I'm sure a lot of minimalist can tell you about the same thing - but it does take some adjusting after you just start to de-cluttering. 

So, a couple of days later - I look at the wall again and began to see its true worth. Sure, anime and movie posters might look nice at first; but a barren wall somehow have calming effects to me. No longer did I felt like the wall is 'screaming' at me - now, I can imagine whatever it's I wanted. I don't know quite how to explain it, but it was a good feeling to have and this is when I started to look minimalism in a different light.

The thing with me and trend is that we never seem to arrive at the same time. I would either be too late to the party or... too late to the party. The minimalism trend had started a couple of years back but I'm just finding it out now. Still, it doesn't matter to me how or when did I arrive... When I look at minimalism; I didn't particularly see it as a trend. I feel it have deeper meaning than that. To me - minimalism is a type of lifestyle that I had committed myself into. It is something that come to me at the right moment and help me deal with some issues in life. Over the years of living in my house, I had grown too comfortable to accumulate so much stuff to the point that I'm beginning to feel suffocated by it. Actually, 'choked' is more accurate... That is when I start researching for new meaning of life, about minimalism movement and long to have similir lifestyle as well.

But, wait... Isn't becoming a minimalist means that I need to get rid of stuff? But, I still need a lot of those things... Some I just brought last month! Does it means I have to get rid of that too? Again, I was feeling defeated before even fully started with anything.

Well, this is where these two books comes in handy...

A tidying guide by Marie Kondo (KonMari).
Truly a masterpiece for anyone who want to
get rid of their stuff but didn't know where to start.
(pic credit: Google images)
Only keep things that sparks joy in your life - that is one of the main teaching that KonMari preach inside of this book. Sounds legit. This books exactly what I needed to validate the need for me to hold on to some of my stuff (when I said 'some', I mean it loosely as 'more'). So, without so much of a feeling - I hold on to things such as my extra lipstick, eyeliner, and books tightly. There's no way I can get rid of these when I can still use it. But, later I realize that I'm just being stupid. Truth is, even though I could lie inside of my head and maybe coax my heart a little - I still can't fooled my own eyes. My eyes recognize a mess when it sees one and slowly, it starts to make sense into my head and undo the lies inside of my heart. Unable to turn a blind eye anymore, I start to choose things that sparks joy to me and began discarding my belongings...

Here's a list of things I decides to get rid of on my first couple of weeks of Jan 2018;

1.) Around 30 books I had finished reading (most of them are around 10-12 years old and still in a good condition. I donated all of it to the Public State library).
2.) My Anime & Movie posters. (I put them inside my graduation scroll. It's so thick and heavy. In case of life-threatening event, I plan to beat robbers with it.)
3.) Ugly physical photo of me when I was a teenager. (I tear it to pieces and burn it right then and there. I don't need this kind of reminder for the rest of my life)
4.)  Expired make up products and toiletries (Instant trash can)
5.)  Old clothes and bags (Donation box for course)
6.)  Old TV, broken DVD player, some other stuff that is recyclable (I brought it to the recycling        centre to be sold and receive some money in return).
7.)  Useless apps that take a lot of space inside of my phone (Delete them without hesitation)
8.)  Old letters and envelopes (tear it to pieces and then burn them).
9.)  Chipped cups and mugs (can be dangerous, so yeah - trash can.)
10.) Knick knacks for art project (also, trash can).

The list might seem short but the work that goes behind it was endless. Everyday I woke up with the same thought; "What should I get rid of today? I don't want it to be anything radical. It must be something I haven't touch or care for in a while..." Once I have decided on what to discard, I began to put my plan into work. Planing and structuring can be fun if you know what your goals are. And so, it goes. My morning starts to unfold.

When I was growing up, my family didn't have much. For a few early years of my life, we didn't even live in our own house. I still remember those days, scraping for bits and pieces of clay so I have something to play with and rejoice the moment I have playing with my cousins. But, I like reading so my dad would brought me a couple of comics and storybook. I would reread them again and again, but never feel tired of them. Fast forward twenty years later, we now lived in our own home and I have about 80 books in my possession; most I only read once (no matter how much I like them) and never bother to give them a second look after I finished. That's how much time had changed. I feel bad as I was writing this because I know that my books deserves better. Thus, I'm planning to reread all of those books again and once I'm finished - I'll be donating it to the library and let someone else benefited from it. 

To say that I had truly embrace a minimalist lifestyle - I wouldn't dare to call it that just yet. A lot of adjustment needs to takes place. One thing for sure - when I decide to let go things; I'll either make sure that I really, really don't need it (thrash can) or it's going of to a better place (donation box, library, etc.). I never throw away things if I wasn't sure. To me, de-cluttering must not only look easy on the eyes, but also soothes my mind and heart. 

There's another book that I read yesterday that also resonates well with me. It's a book written by a man name Fumio Sasaki, titled; Goodbye, Things: The New Japanese Minimalism. I pick up the book, knowing it had something to do with minimalism but with a slight concern that it wouldn't be good as KonMari method. However, the advice I had received through this book was awesome and better than I expected. Mr. Sasaki is clearly a well-read man, as evident through his references of other authors (KonMari herself included), social and minimalism in Japan, his observation and opinion on what can be define as minimalism, and his very own advice of 55 things you can get rid of today and I couldn't be more grateful and found myself agreeing to everything he said inside the book. 

Honestly, if KonMari book had taught me to choose things that only sparks joy, Mr. Sasaki's shows me that there's another world out there once you start to embarks into minimalism lifestyle. I could go on and on of how much I love Mr. Sasaki book more than KonMari, but at the end of the day - it wouldn't matter coz I already obtain a very useful lessons from both. I also found both authors books compliments each other very well. I love how they talks enthusiastically about downsizing and selecting their stuff, how it had changed their life, and found happiness and joy within a clear space and their tidy houses. Their enthusiasm somehow inspires me on my own minimalism journey and I look forward the day I stopped missing my belongings and start focusing on my own personal growth instead.

This is how the book looks like.
The content is great and I rated it 5 stars.
I do enjoy the simplistic cover art.
(pic credit: Google images)
Even though I had read all of these books and pro-actively dealing with my stuff, I know there's a lot more to learn. My real focus right now is to use whatever STUFF that I still had left behind, and reconsider if I ever going to repurchase them again in the future. Such decision doesn't takes just a couple of hours, but a careful consideration. I'm looking forward for a change that not only benefit me for today, but in lifetime.

Thank you for joining me today and take a peak inside my minimalism journey. I'm looking forward to make more progress in the future. See you soon.

-Mimi Said-