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Saturday, June 2, 2018

Things I Got Rid of on February 2018 (minimalism series)

Edited: This entry supposed to be posted on February but for somewhat reason - I had completely forgotten about it. A few months had passed since then and since I feel bad about deleting it, here's for your eyes to feast on. Enjoy reading!

I used to think that if you love something - then you gotta 'show' it. Writing comments, liking some random pictures, or whatever you do to make your intention well-known... Well, I don't really do that anymore. These days, I prefer to like/love something anonymously. In other words, I like to be inspired, but not really disclosing to anyone of what had actually inspired me... It seems like a cunning little thing to do, but I love it. Over the years I had grown to love my privacy and anonymity so much, it feels natural for me wanting to protect my sources.

But, not today. Today, I feel about talking about something that had inspired me.

It's had been more than 2 months since I began practicing minimalism. I never feel so much happier. My mind feel so at peace and there hasn't been a day where I feel of regret after getting rid of my stuff on January. I have a lot less stuff now, but that fact doesn't bother me that much. Each day feel fulfilled and simpler. I can walk into any store, look or try on any clothes - but come out without buying anything. That made me feel strong. Temptation is a worst enemy, but I make sure to stick to my budget and reminded myself - you don't need stuff and shit to feel happy. All you need is, YOU.

I used to buy a lot of things. From bracelet, to DVD's, to anime poster, hell - I even brought a air purifier because it looks like a novelty thing to have. It feel good to purchase them at first, but none of them leave a lasting impression. Some of those things I bought I haven't even touch in weeks or years (for that matter)... It feel like such a waste, but as soon as I start embracing minimalism - things finally makes sense. I feel so much in control now, instead of letting my desire and selfish reasons controls me. Come what may - advertisement on TV, Youtube videos, website, or even some shitty magazine - I couldn't be bothered.

Come to think of it, just about a week ago I deactivated my Facebook account because there's way too many people trying to sell stuff there. I found it too bothersome and honestly, too tempting... I figure that I don't need this bullsh*t, so I left. That's how serious I am about my minimalism journey. I get rid the temptation before it get to me.

On my first month of minimalism, I get rid about ten stuff on my list. Here, I had come back with another 10 more items for Feb 2018;

1.) Another 6 more books in donation pile. (Old romance novel)
2.) Old school bags ( there's about 4-5 of them. Also, in my donation pile.)
3.) A few more pieces of clothing (donation pile)
4.) Old condiments and expired spices 
5.) Old Tupperware and plastic storage (resell them at recycling centre)
6.) Old white paper (resell them at recycling centre)
7.) Old carpet
8.) Dead plant (and replant a new plant in its place)
9.) Boxes (minimize the boxes that I use to store my stuff; 5 into 1)
10.) Worn out undergarments

Honestly speaking, getting rid of stuff is one of the most liberating moments of my life. I used to be careful on my purchase and the thought of giving my private possession to someone else is unfathomable. Now, I couldn't even care less... As long as I know where my possession is going - then I'm fine about letting them go.

Yours Truly,
Mimi Said

Fragrance Scents That I Love

Aside from enjoying a sip from a hot tea, I also love applying a quick dash of perfume/fragrance on myself every now and then. Personally, I love scents that are fresh, light, fruity and slightly non-flowery. With my collections keeps growing in the passing years, I thought it only right to put them into a list and posted it in here. Anyway, with that being said - I hope you guys enjoy scrolling this post....

1.) Demeter: Sweet Baby (50ml & 15ml) by Demeter Fragrance Library

2017 Fragrance
Eau de Toilette
30 ml = RM 59.90 ; 15 ml - RM34.90
Demeter Frangrance Library was probably one of the first 'serious' perfume that I choose for myself. It has been around for more than 22 years (est. 1996), but I only seen its emergence in Malaysia on the late 2017. From the first moment I take a whiff of this thing - I know I'm in love. I got my first 15ml bottle from AEON Wellness and even though it was a little bit pricey - I still made my second purchase (30 ml) a few weeks afterwards. They had quite limit range sold in Malaysia (about 10-12 scents), despite having gigantic fragrance collection in oversea (they have about 300 scents in U.S). Among of my favorites are Sweet Baby, Daisy, Laundomat, Clean Soap, and Tears

2.) Peach Vineyard Body Mist by The Body Shop

2017 Fragrance
Body Mist
100 ml = RM59.00
The Second fragrance that I chosen in the year of 2017 was Vineyard Peach from The Body Shop. Since I already spent about RM500.00 from this store in the year of 2016-2017 alone, it probably weird not to include any fragrances into my purchase. I choose this scent because I enjoyed the fruity smell (along with raspberry and oranges). I brought this from the online store so I got to knock a couple of ringgits off from the discount they had offered. The scent is nice and very peachy. I enjoy applying it so much, especially after a long, hot shower at night.     

3.) W. Dressroom Dress & Living by W.Dressroom New York 

Fragrance 2018
70 ml = RM25.90
W. Dressroom Dress & Living is a perfume that I brought in 2018. It's probably my favorite fragrances by far as not only it have fresh and floral scents, but it also have anti-bacterial purposes (2-in-1). It's also one of the fast-selling fragrance in South Korea and the price is pretty affordable with discounts. I brought my first three bottles from an online store called Since its a cologne, the scents are expected to last about 1-2 hours, but mine lasted for more than 12 hours after I sprayed it into my clothes. I think that's pretty cool. And also because I like it so much, I return to the store the following week to purchase another three bottles. This fragrance have about 10 different scents and among of my favorites are (45) Morning Rain, (97) April Cotton, (47) Fig Leaf, and (43) Always Happy and (02) Coconut. I will probably purchase more from this brand in the future.

4.) Summer Swing Cologne by Johnson's and Johnson's

2010-2017 Fragrance
100 ml = RM6.90-7.90
Last but not least is this Summer Swing baby cologne from Johnson & Johnson's. A friend introduce it to me back in 2006, but it wasn't until 2010 that I decided to purchase it and turn it into my signature scent. I don't know if it's my old age or the fact that there's a lot of other fragrance out there - but I had grown tired with this scent. My last purchase was back in December 2016 but because of all these other perfumes and fragrances I had purchase in 2017 - I never look back.

So, these are some fragrance scents that I been loving lately. I think having your own signature scent / fragrance is very important as it would not only refreshing to wear, but makes your presence more memorable. Thank you for reading this entry. I'll be seeing you soon on my next post.

Yours Truly,
Mimi Said

Tuesday, April 10, 2018

Reason Why I Quit Social Media (FB in particular)

So, it's already 2018 and what do you know... Facebook founder, Mark Zuckerberg is under hot water for some serious allegation - data breach of its user. Apparently Zuckerberg policy allows him to sold off user information (est. 87 million people) to Trump. Geez, Zuckerberg... What a way to pave your own grave... Now, why wasn't I surprised about this? Oh wait - I know... Because a pretty similar incident had happened before. We all had been warned...

The year was 2013. Edward Snowden had copied and leaked some classified information from the National Security Agency (NSA) without authorization. When he fled with the information in his flash drive, nobody takes notice. It was initially a one-man operation, but thanks to help from selective journalist - the whole wide world now knows his story. U.S government hail him as a traitor to their country, but I think the man did it to warn his fellow countryman of what's been happening under their noses. He warned people about what is happening, yet nobody seems to take notice. People still using social media to rants, sharing stuff they life, etc... But, not me. 

I heard his voice and I'm a bit worried.

Because of Snowden action, I now know the danger of oversharing. He open my eyes on how dangerous it is to share your information (not only to people around you), but also on the internet. You know what they say, knowledge/information is power and don't Facebook know it. Which is why it hardly a surprise Facebook is in a deep sh*t right now.

Every year, I found the usage of Facebook in my daily life had become more pointless. I was never a big sharer IRL, but Facebook makes me want to share pictures, words, moods, quotes... whatever it is - on my page. I'm sure my reasoning to stick back then is the same like everyone else; posted my pic, got few likes, they makes me happy. Rinse and repeat. It didn't make me rich per say (as it did with Facebook ads revenue), but it's enough to make me stay at the time. And so, on and on it went - for 5-fucking-years! It wasn't until early Mac 2018 that I decided - enough is enough. It's time for me to delete my page forever. 

Did I missed it? Not even for a bit.

To tell you the truth, I always think how pointless all of these likes and comments I had received at this site. Not only did I think it was pointless, I also think it's boring. How many lives had been made miserable for the race of 'who got the most like' or 'who is the most popular?'. Anxiously sitting while waiting for some validation from strangers? Well, that doesn't sound like me. I don't care what people think. Their likes or comments means nothing so long as my mind is made up. I'm more of the 'be-whatever-u-want-to-be-and-fuck-all-the-rest' kind of girl.  So, what the hell am I doing here? Funny enough, I have no answer for that.

So, I started using Facebook less and less. Once in a blue moon (after 4-5 months had passed), I'll posted something (usually a picture with littlest caption as possible) before becaming dormant again. While most of people I know still getting sucked into Facebook, I wasn't. I'm not sure why, but I seemed to enjoy my own life more.

With the recent fall out in Facebook, I'll say I made a right call.

Funny to see people abandoning FB as soon as the data breach made into news. I'm sure Snowden, Mr. Robot, and many other outlets had warned them before about this. Would they listen? Nope. Everyone are either too addicted or too obsessed about themselves to care. So, what if Facebook mined your data a little... what you don't know wouldn't hurt you. Well now you know, don't you? Now you know that what you don't know, CAN and eventually WILL - kill you. I know it definitely had killed my trust on Facebook and probably more than a dozen social media out there. 

Lately, I been enjoying my life (social media free) more than ever. I wiped off my info and pictures on FB (while actively deleting all of my pictures from Instagram) and never looked back. Everyday feel so much tranquil now, no race to who look the dopiest, or endless wanderlust photo's. Braggers, needy and narcissist - all be DAMNED. There wasn't such bullshit in my life; not anymore. Nowadays, I feel more relaxed, more settled. This is my 'new' normal - and I like it!

Friday, February 16, 2018

Konmari Method & Goodbye,Things - The Nice Guide of Minimalism for Beginners

Today is 16 February 2018. And it has been more than a month since I decided that;

"Screw shopping. Screw stuff. Screw having so little money. I'm going full on minimalism starting 2018."

It was an idea that struck accord to me after reading so many articles detailing about the new 'minimalism' movement, how people having so little or next to nothing in their life. Living to the bare minimum puzzles me at first, though I didn't really chastises anyone who choose to do it. That's one thing I always try to remind myself - never judge people before getting to know them. So, I did a little more digging, watch more videos, read a couple more articles and books just to be sure that before making any comment - at least I am knowledgeable of the subject. As a result, I found out a couple of things. I realize that aside from having so little in their possession with theme color most constantly being white; most of minimalist also seems have one thing in common...

Most of them seems to be happier than they were before. 

I was skeptical at first. Yeah, you get rid of stuff and you're happy about it? Throwing, giving, reselling... a hundreds dollar of money spent, now all gone. Where's the logic in that? If it was me, I would be angry of the lack of profit return. But, that doesn't seems to be the case with these minimalist. For some reason, they're pretty content and more than willing to let go of their stuff even if it pays next to nothing. That part perplexes me somehow so I did a little experiment to test out if I can do the same thing and not feel mad nor cheated about it. So what did I do? I start off really small, of course.

I get rid all of my anime and movie posters. Yes, I did. 

Left pic: Before; Right pic: After
Look at my smug face. At the time, I had just finished decorating
my wall and was so proud about it. But, fast forward four months later...
So, I clean up my wall and left nothing there. Now, what? Any minute now - I was looking forward to start feeling happy and content. So, I look at my now almost barren wall, but yet - I felt nothing. Already I thought this is a failure... Perhaps minimalism wasn't for me, you know? I was ready to let it go but then decide to give it just a few more days. Which is exactly what I needed. 

I'm sure a lot of minimalist can tell you about the same thing - but it does take some adjusting after you just start to de-cluttering. 

So, a couple of days later - I look at the wall again and began to see its true worth. Sure, anime and movie posters might look nice at first; but a barren wall somehow have calming effects to me. No longer did I felt like the wall is 'screaming' at me - now, I can imagine whatever it's I wanted. I don't know quite how to explain it, but it was a good feeling to have and this is when I started to look minimalism in a different light.

The thing with me and trend is that we never seem to arrive at the same time. I would either be too late to the party or... too late to the party. The minimalism trend had started a couple of years back but I'm just finding it out now. Still, it doesn't matter to me how or when did I arrive... When I look at minimalism; I didn't particularly see it as a trend. I feel it have deeper meaning than that. To me - minimalism is a type of lifestyle that I had committed myself into. It is something that come to me at the right moment and help me deal with some issues in life. Over the years of living in my house, I had grown too comfortable to accumulate so much stuff to the point that I'm beginning to feel suffocated by it. Actually, 'choked' is more accurate... That is when I start researching for new meaning of life, about minimalism movement and long to have similir lifestyle as well.

But, wait... Isn't becoming a minimalist means that I need to get rid of stuff? But, I still need a lot of those things... Some I just brought last month! Does it means I have to get rid of that too? Again, I was feeling defeated before even fully started with anything.

Well, this is where these two books comes in handy...

A tidying guide by Marie Kondo (KonMari).
Truly a masterpiece for anyone who want to
get rid of their stuff but didn't know where to start.
(pic credit: Google images)
Only keep things that sparks joy in your life - that is one of the main teaching that KonMari preach inside of this book. Sounds legit. This books exactly what I needed to validate the need for me to hold on to some of my stuff (when I said 'some', I mean it loosely as 'more'). So, without so much of a feeling - I hold on to things such as my extra lipstick, eyeliner, and books tightly. There's no way I can get rid of these when I can still use it. But, later I realize that I'm just being stupid. Truth is, even though I could lie inside of my head and maybe coax my heart a little - I still can't fooled my own eyes. My eyes recognize a mess when it sees one and slowly, it starts to make sense into my head and undo the lies inside of my heart. Unable to turn a blind eye anymore, I start to choose things that sparks joy to me and began discarding my belongings...

Here's a list of things I decides to get rid of on my first couple of weeks of Jan 2018;

1.) Around 30 books I had finished reading (most of them are around 10-12 years old and still in a good condition. I donated all of it to the Public State library).
2.) My Anime & Movie posters. (I put them inside my graduation scroll. It's so thick and heavy. In case of life-threatening event, I plan to beat robbers with it.)
3.) Ugly physical photo of me when I was a teenager. (I tear it to pieces and burn it right then and there. I don't need this kind of reminder for the rest of my life)
4.)  Expired make up products and toiletries (Instant trash can)
5.)  Old clothes and bags (Donation box for course)
6.)  Old TV, broken DVD player, some other stuff that is recyclable (I brought it to the recycling        centre to be sold and receive some money in return).
7.)  Useless apps that take a lot of space inside of my phone (Delete them without hesitation)
8.)  Old letters and envelopes (tear it to pieces and then burn them).
9.)  Chipped cups and mugs (can be dangerous, so yeah - trash can.)
10.) Knick knacks for art project (also, trash can).

The list might seem short but the work that goes behind it was endless. Everyday I woke up with the same thought; "What should I get rid of today? I don't want it to be anything radical. It must be something I haven't touch or care for in a while..." Once I have decided on what to discard, I began to put my plan into work. Planing and structuring can be fun if you know what your goals are. And so, it goes. My morning starts to unfold.

When I was growing up, my family didn't have much. For a few early years of my life, we didn't even live in our own house. I still remember those days, scraping for bits and pieces of clay so I have something to play with and rejoice the moment I have playing with my cousins. But, I like reading so my dad would brought me a couple of comics and storybook. I would reread them again and again, but never feel tired of them. Fast forward twenty years later, we now lived in our own home and I have about 80 books in my possession; most I only read once (no matter how much I like them) and never bother to give them a second look after I finished. That's how much time had changed. I feel bad as I was writing this because I know that my books deserves better. Thus, I'm planning to reread all of those books again and once I'm finished - I'll be donating it to the library and let someone else benefited from it. 

To say that I had truly embrace a minimalist lifestyle - I wouldn't dare to call it that just yet. A lot of adjustment needs to takes place. One thing for sure - when I decide to let go things; I'll either make sure that I really, really don't need it (thrash can) or it's going of to a better place (donation box, library, etc.). I never throw away things if I wasn't sure. To me, de-cluttering must not only look easy on the eyes, but also soothes my mind and heart. 

There's another book that I read yesterday that also resonates well with me. It's a book written by a man name Fumio Sasaki, titled; Goodbye, Things: The New Japanese Minimalism. I pick up the book, knowing it had something to do with minimalism but with a slight concern that it wouldn't be good as KonMari method. However, the advice I had received through this book was awesome and better than I expected. Mr. Sasaki is clearly a well-read man, as evident through his references of other authors (KonMari herself included), social and minimalism in Japan, his observation and opinion on what can be define as minimalism, and his very own advice of 55 things you can get rid of today and I couldn't be more grateful and found myself agreeing to everything he said inside the book. 

Honestly, if KonMari book had taught me to choose things that only sparks joy, Mr. Sasaki's shows me that there's another world out there once you start to embarks into minimalism lifestyle. I could go on and on of how much I love Mr. Sasaki book more than KonMari, but at the end of the day - it wouldn't matter coz I already obtain a very useful lessons from both. I also found both authors books compliments each other very well. I love how they talks enthusiastically about downsizing and selecting their stuff, how it had changed their life, and found happiness and joy within a clear space and their tidy houses. Their enthusiasm somehow inspires me on my own minimalism journey and I look forward the day I stopped missing my belongings and start focusing on my own personal growth instead.

This is how the book looks like.
The content is great and I rated it 5 stars.
I do enjoy the simplistic cover art.
(pic credit: Google images)
Even though I had read all of these books and pro-actively dealing with my stuff, I know there's a lot more to learn. My real focus right now is to use whatever STUFF that I still had left behind, and reconsider if I ever going to repurchase them again in the future. Such decision doesn't takes just a couple of hours, but a careful consideration. I'm looking forward for a change that not only benefit me for today, but in lifetime.

Thank you for joining me today and take a peak inside my minimalism journey. I'm looking forward to make more progress in the future. See you soon.

-Mimi Said-

Wednesday, January 3, 2018

My 2018 Resolution

picture credit: Google image

Ok. Hello 2018. Glad you're here.

I always feel like there's something special about starting a new year. Clean slate, as they always say and I couldn't agree more. People always talk about thing they wanna do to start their new year; resolution, goals, etc. Making THE big changes. Me? I just like to start small. Not always a big on big things, you know? They bores me. I like small things that makes the difference. Example no. 1 - waking up early in the morning. Sounds about the simplest thing to do. No biggie. Anyone can do it, even a ten year old. But, it's 'biggie' thing for me. One of many things I struggle with, and I'm sure - a lot others do too. So, that's what I like to change this year. It might be hard, given a day or two. But, if I keep on doing it - hey, it could be a new habit. A forced one of course, but it's still count. They say old habits dies hard, but I digress. Set an achievable goal and plenty of time; I'm sure it can be fixed. That's why I like to start now.

Two days ago I woke up with a new high spirit inside of me. A lot of things had happened last year, some of it was good, many were bad - I just wish a part of it could disappeared and be gone forever. But, hey - that's me being a child. Truth is, those bad memories are still gonna hunt me and my subconsciousness everyday. Instead of running, it's probably better for me to face it and then deal with it in my own way. Anyway, I figure 2018 might be the year to keep my bad thoughts in control and resolution could be one of the way to do it. Control... Even the very word terrifies me, but I'm ready. My mind, body and soul are ready to get beaten. I'm ready to face my own Demon this year; whichever form or shape they may take. I don't mind if I get bleed, as long as I know that I had tried my very best.

Ever since I started vlogging in my daily life, I barely thinks about writing in this blog anymore. And to think... this used to be my number one choice when it comes to 'soul-baring'. Anyway, I think as the time and technologies change - so did I. I found it's much easier to contemplate my day through vlogging, than using words or pictures. Call it being narcissistic or what, but I love recording my daily life, edit and later watch it. Things can still be pretty interesting even when you're jobless, you know? Sure, I don't have the money, but that doesn't mean I can't have good time. Speaking of which, also a good thing... Time is on my side. I can basically do whatever I want with it. I don't think a lot of people could make the same claim.

Anyhow, 2018 is gonna be a special year for me. Not because I had decide to take another course at university or go to another country. But, because I had decide to pay more attention to my health. You know, I did my two-year worth medical check-up last year and had a little bit of scare. The doctor told me that if I'm not careful enough - I could potentially get a gallstone. Well, that runs in a family, I guess (on my maternal side). 'Potentially' doesn't exactly sound harmless, but at twenty-five; I realize that this is no time to be lenient about my health. So, no more fried food, meat, or anything that's high in cholesterol for me (no matter how delicious they are). I already cut down the sugar intake on my drinks about a week ago and sure, it sucks, but in a long-time period - this is gonna be a good thing. I hope too.

I guess that's pretty much what I had to say, when it comes to my 2018 resolution. Nothing too big, too show-off, or too un-achievable. It's just a small changes that I hope to lead into big ones in the future. It's too early to tell anything yet, but for now -  this is becoming of me. Let's pray it will become a huge success.

Anyway, thank you for reading this entry. Hope you have a good start in 2018 too.     

-Mimi Said-

Tuesday, October 24, 2017

Sunshower @ UM Graduation Day 2017

Hello there. I'm back with my final entry (I hope), about my graduation day at UM. I hope you don't feel sick about reading this already.

As you know, I just completed my master degree studies and my graduation day (pictures) is finally here. But, instead of using English language as medium off interaction, kali ni aku akan gunakan bahasa Melayu.. Actually, tak lah Melayu mana pun (Manglish la cam biasa).  Harap korang sudi membacanya.

Seperti yang aku dah jelaskan kat post aku sebelum ni, hari konvo aku jatuhnya pada 22hb Oktober 2017, Ahad (est 3.00ptg). Minggu cuti mid-sem universiti & juga cuti sekolah. Dah pastinya tak ada masalah untuk ayah dan adik aku. Jumlah tetamu (guest) yang dibenarkan untuk pelajar master hanyalah 2 orang sahaja (PHD boleh sampai 3 orang). Tiga tahun lepas aku dah bawak masuk mak ayah aku, kali ni aku rasa macam nak bawa adik lelaki aku, Syahmi Said la pulak. Konvo hari Ahad kan dan memandangkan ini mid-sem break/cuti sekolah - itu semua boleh diatur... 

Sebenarnya, aku kesian gak nak mengheret adik aku ke sana ke mari walhal aku tahu yang dia ada exam lepas cuti mid-sem ni. Tetapi, syukur dikurniakan adik mithali gred A yang rajin melayan kerenah kakaknya ni. Takpe bro, konvo u nanti I datang and amik gambor tak putus-putus cam mamarazi yek? 

Oleh disebabkan konvo ni dekat UM, maka takleh la nak bersuka ria je pergi tanpa memikirkan perancangan perjalanan. Dari tempat aku ke KL - makan masa hampir dua jam kot... Tambah-tambah lagi aku ada majlis meraikan graduan Master dekat fakulti jugak pagi tu. Takkan nak paksa semua orang bangun pagi lak? Kena be considerate... Jadi, untuk memudahkan kerja - kami pun menyewa hotel. Semasa melayari laman web, nasib baik terjumpa hotel yang berdekatan dengan UM yang within our budget. TYSM mama... hehe

Macam Valenza Hotel  ni jaraknya cuma 6-7 minit je dari UM & Midvalley.
Wifi tip top, bilik pun wangi je. Sangat berbaloi...
Hari keesokannya, awal-awal aku dah bangun untuk siapkan make-up dan bawak turun barang. Aku tak pastilah fakulti lain di UM ni macam mana, tapi fakulti aku memang ada majlis meraikan graduan master dan PHD ni. Seperti konvo, majlis ni juga hanya membolehkan dua orang tetamu jemputan je jadi aku invitelah parents aku. Kita orang sampai ke fakulti aku 45 minit lebih awal sebab aku nak send adik aku ke student area UM agar dia boleh study kat sana. Lepas mendaftar, baru aku tahu sebenarnya boleh juga kalau nak jemput ahli keluarga yang lain tapi nak wat camne - adik aku dah start study dia. Aku tak nak la kacau dia ke apa kan, tapi dalam tempoh adik aku tak ade tu sempat jugalah aku tangkap dua tiga gambar ngan mak ayah aku macam kat bawah ni;

With my beloved ones.... hehe. 
Masa ni tetamu belum ramai. 
Apalagi kan, keluar phone tangkap depan.
Bersama dengan lecturers and graduan yang lain.
Eh, eh... tetiba muncul pulak my lil' brother..
Atas desakan aku yang tak putus-putus, adik aku telah
di paksa menukar baju 'kasual'nya kepada formal di bilik air student lelaki berdekatan.
Tu yang muncung panjang tu... huhu (JK)
A little bit of souvenir given by my faculty.
Thank you for taking care of me for these past 2 years.
I couldn't possibly make it without them.
Invitation card untuk mama and bro aku.
Hehe, excited gila bro aku datang aku siap print lagi
(actually aku print gak nama parents aku masa convo kat UKM dulu)

Suasana di dalam Dewan Tunku Canselor, UM
First time datang sini masa aku daftar as new student, nearly two years ago.
Now, as a graduate. Time does flies, I guess...
Selfie bersama coursemate, Kak Ida.
Ada dua orang lagi ni, WeiX dan Kak Fauziah tapi kami telah ter'pisah' selang seorang
dek kerana angka giliran. Kalau tak dah lama aku ajak mereka selfie berempat. :)
Finally, dapat jugak scroll master from UM.
It feels so surreal to me.
Apa-apa pun, amat bersyukur. :D
Picture taken sejurus saja aku keluar daripada dewan.
Pipi nampak buncit sebab makan banyak malam tu. Haha.
Dalam banyak-banyak gambar, ini antara favorite aku. Masa ni boleh tengok gelagat manusia-manusia lain berkonvo. Mungkin tak nampak jelas kat sini, but aku boleh rasa connection tu while I was watching them. Seperti yang aku katakan dulu dalam post ini, ambil master (tak kira apa discipline pun) bukan lah senang... You're not only playing with time and future here, but you're also playing with $$$... Bunyik memang macam best "Ya, aku tengah ambil master sekarang ni..." but you have no idea how much work I had to do behind the scene (bukan merungut ye, tapi kenyataan).

So, dekat sini aku nak ucapkan tahniah lah and kudo's bagi mereka yang dapat habiskan thesis on time, but more respect for those yang mampu teruskan walaupun tesisnya telah di reject beberapa kali. Rejection, giving up, anxiety, fear, etc... - I'm sure student yang take Master/PHD semua pernah rasa. Lagi lama masa kau spend untuk buat tesis, lagi banyaklah feelings tu bercampur aduk sampai at the end dah tak boleh fikir apa dah. That why I wanna say... you guys are the true champion kat sini because tak pernah kenal erti berputus asa. Kalau aku boleh kasi satu advice macam mana nak buat tesis; advice aku adalah keep moving forward... There'll be a time bila kau tetiba stuck, sedih sebab kena reject, mogok sebab rasa macam buat balik pun takde guna - but nothing will change selagi kau tak buat apa-apa. That's what I learned and now I'm passing that down to anyone who's reading my blog and interested in taking master degree course themselves.

Pictures with mom & dad
Apa-apa pun, sebelum aku terlupa - aku nak cakap yang aku sangat grateful yang semua family aku sudi meluangkan masa untuk menghadiri majlis konvo aku kali ini. Seriously, happy gila bila nampak semua family members aku berkumpul. Time UKM dulu pun best jugak, tapi boleh rasa incompleteness tu bila family members tu tak cukup sorang. Since adik aku pun ada ni - maka completelah family kami yang kecil ni. Hihi...

Pictures with my lil' bro...
Okay, so here's a little 'fun' thing yang jadi masa hari konvo aku... Lebih kurang 30 minit gitu lepas sidang ditangguhkan, sedang aku dalam perjalanan memilih flower bouquet - hujan tiba-tiba turun dengan lebatnya... Ala-ala sunshower / foxrain gitu... Terkejut gila aku kenapa tadi panas terik boleh tetiba hujan panas lebat pulokss? It feels so strange.... Anyway, nak marah pun tak boleh juga pasal hujan yang turun tu kan satu Rahmat? So, instead of feeling sabotage or whatever - aku senyum and pray je dalam hati sampailah hujan tu berhenti. 

Masa tengah membelek gambar-gambar convo, ternampak lak
gambar ni. Tak sedar pun bila adik aku angkat phone and snap.
Cantik pulak walaupun jalan tar tu dah hampir basah semua wakaka.
I have to give it to my bro. Despite of the sudden change in weather,
he really knows to capture the beauty in a moment.
Haha, walaupun hujan masih belum reda, photoshoot tetap perlu diteruskan jugak.
Namanya nak give up memang takde yeh.
Bukannya hari-hari pun aku konvo camni. XD
Final picture with mom & dad.
So, aku dan keluarga aku bertolak balik dari UM ke Melaka kira-kira pukul 6.00p.m. Kena hantar adik aku balik cepat lah pasal esoknya dia ada test. Sedih gak bila time drop adik aku kat dorm dia but apa leh buat; perjalanan study dia masih panjang lagi. Hopefully adik aku pun dapat G.o.T juga dan dapat keep moving forward dengan life dia (same advice also applies to me). I'm only 25 years old... Masih jauh lagi perjalanan, benda aku nak belajar, dan experience yang aku perlu tempuhi out there. Cuma jangan expect aku study amik PHD ke hapa lah dalam masa terdekat ni. Hampir 7 tahun aku study dari zaman Matrik, ke zaman Degree hinggalah finally...Master. I think that's quite enough.... don't u think so?

Disebabkan ayah aku dah bagi teddy bear yang agak besar semasa degree dulu,
aku tak nak teddy bear gila besar gedabak kali ni. Wat semak jerr.
Cukuplah teddy bear kecil ni sebagai momento hari konvo master aku.
It's not the size that matters, but the meaning behind it that's important...

Okaylah, sampai sini dulu lah post aku untuk kali ini (mungkin ini coretan terakhir untuk tahun ini)... Apa-apa pun terima kasih sebab sudi baca. I know you probably be thinking by now... "Panjangnya entry dah tu gambar sampai berbelas-belas pulak tu. Ni mesti kes riak ni..." Haha, please don't think that way. Aku cuma nak share about my life journey so far, Sejujurnya, aku lagi enjoy menulis di blog ni daripada nak gebang di sosial media. Disitu aku cuma update kat FB 4-5 bulan sekali and then terus disappear without a trace (the same goes with instagram). Tapi aku suka update kat sini.... I think that's because most people tak tahu yang aku ada blog (kalau tahu pun dorang tak tahu url address) dan kat sini aku boleh post anything about my life without so much of getting scrutinize. Pressing hard on the matter, it's also because I feel most like myself here....

Anyway, dengan berakhirnya program master aku, maka berakhir jugalah entry aku kat UM. Rasa macam sekejap sangat but don't get me wrong - I'm glad that its over. Harap-harap I'll come back with a good news to you all. Doakan yang baik-baik saja, ye. Thank you and God bless...

Yours Truly,
Mimi Said.

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Pre-convocation UM 2017

Hello there! How y'all doing? Mimi's here...

So, I'm back with another post. This would be my third one for this month alone and believe me when I say - it also won't be my last. I got another one planned for my convocation day, but until then - I'll hope you'll enjoy reading this.

I guess I can finally say it out loud now; my days as a master student in UM is officially over. I had been studying close to two years now (mixed-mode, what can u do?), yet it feel like only yesterday I first stepped my feet in here as a student. Come to think about it, I didn't make a lot of post about this place before as I only attended the classes just for a semester and now it had coming to an end - I guess it might be a good idea to milk out this final experience as much as I can by immortalized in this blog. After all, this could be my last time studying in here. ( ̄∇ ̄)

Before I started talking about my pre-convocation day in UM, I think I wanna say something first. I wanna say about my experience, the one things that stood out the most for me about this place compared to my previous alma mater (UKM). You know what they say... Different places brings out different experience... No? Well, maybe I just made that part up. Anyway, before I start rambling again - let's begin...

Three years ago, when I was a student in UKM, something that struck to me the most besides studying and assignments was... the endless of car riding. Back then there wasn't any functional train nearby my hometown that I can use (the nearest one is in Seremban). Naturally, car was one of the my legitimate option to get there. Back then I didn't even consider riding a bus never because it proves to be much hassle. However, that doesn't means that I was too fond with having my dad picking me up either. I dislike it because the trip is always so freaking expansive...

But, today it's a little bit different, tho. With an exception to my first semester, I can say that for the most 95% of the time - I can get by using train and buses. I choose not to stay in KL because of the expansive rent, so I personally like public transportation because it's much easier and cheaper. I usually went to UM alone, but since it's my pre-convocation day, the idea of going there alone sounds... a bit lonely. Luckily, my lil' brother is on his mid- semester break, so I asked him to tag along. Truth is, he wasn't feeling so well, but he did come anyways coz he's such a doll. Thanks bro!

So, I have nothing more to say and since they say picture can say a thousand words, please treat yourself to some scrolling....

Examination Building, UM - 10.30 a.m
Inside of the paper bag are my Graduation robe, caps and others.
And yeah, who else but the little old ME...
(I have no idea why I made that face tho)
The stairs heading towards the UM pre-convocation carnival.
I gotta say, despite never been here before, I'm quite impressed.
It's pretty dope.
Food Junction, Midvalley - 12.30 p.m
Lunch time!
I was starving so I decide to have some Thai fried rice with
side dishes for my lunch while my little brother choose to have some Chicken rice.
Matcha Ice Cream, 3.10 p.m
Before heading back, I told my brother about this delicious
Matcha ice cream from a store call Family Mart.
It only cost about RM2.80 each and super delicious!
He have a try and told me that he likes it.
It's located at the same level with the KTM station.
A definite try if you come to Midvalley.
Waiting for the Train, 3.20 p.m
A little selfie time while waiting for the train.
One of a few downside about taking public transportation
- it takes forever to arrive...
My little brother said that he loves this convocation paper bag design.
He thinks it's pretty 'kawaii'. ;)
While killing the time waiting for the train, my bro decides to play game on his phone.
He looks so into it so I decide to snap without his knowing... Hehe.
More selfie on the train with some nonsense sticker I put for lolz.
I hope you like the direction of this picture is heading. So here's the story;
"The naughty kuma-san is looking at her brother throwing up
 with a smirk upon her face. THE END."
Oh look, I even make a fire...
Arrival at KTM Tampin, Pulau Sebang, 5.05 p.m 
We had arrived! I didn't realize that my brother is
taking this picture until he showed it to me.
What a sneak!!
So, that's it guys. That's the end of days for my pre-convocation UM. There's another post coming soon so stay tuned for that. Thank you for reading this entry. See y'all soon!

Yours truly,
Mimi Said.